kadang2 rasa mcm baru semalam aku balik dari tadika. pakai tudung getah tarik. baju kurung hijau. morning routine wat senaman "HEAD & SHOULDER...KNEE & TOES (3x)...EYE, MOUTH, EAR, NOSE". love that routine. i drew my first house using crayon. that was my first masterpiece. i think i'm not growing up at all. feel like peter pan. guess i was just afraid of reality. i'm used to prepare meal for family since i was 9 yrs old till now. the same routine make me feel the time is freeze since my childhood. i always had this thought about what am i gonna be when i grow up. sometime it feels abnormal to say this since i am a grown up person. once in a while i felt lost and confuse. aku rasa salah satu sebab adalah...aku masih belom jadi ape yg aku impikan masa kecik dulu. so ak maseh rasa aku kat bangku sekolah lagi. i've to admit that life was not that easy and most of the time, it gives us headache. but i pray to Allah that i can live through it and be blessed by Him.
My advice to myself are:
- please be patient in whatever happened in your life. u might cherish that moment of how it will give you valuable lesson.(hope so...)
- please let the gone be by gone. no more anger and hate in your heart. it will kill you slowly without u realize.
- forgiveness is your best friend
- have faith in whatever you believe in.though most of them are not real, it just moves and motivate you.
- change is not easy. hanging there, try your best and hope the change will make you a better person
- stop pushing people out of your life. you'll die alone and loneliness might affected your sanity.
- family first, bring your heart home. at least you have someone to turn to and blame everything to them (ahaha...quote from a song)
- try not to take everything people say about you. appreciate yourself and be proud of what you have become.
- rejection/regret/refuse - these words have affected you for a long time. some give you strength. some give slaps in face. but remember one thing: everything happened for reasons.
- * DON'T WORRY BE HAPPY * \^_^/